ethics in suicide?

is it possible to have partaken in an ancient ritual and sold your soul without knowing? could that time back in ‘04 have opened a door somewhere? could I be under possession? seems very unlikely but when you wake up mad as hell from dreams and you can’t breath and you feel like you’re suffocating…

and this is why I think drugs are dangerous. you can open yourself to things that shouldn’t be real. which can really compromise who you are. on accident. I mean, maybe if drugs are going to be you’re whole life then I suppose possession isn’t really you’re biggest worry. it’s just that people who’s lives survive on drugs don’t survive very long at all. survival of the fittest; natural selection… and maybe that’s the point? like alcoholics that still drink. like smokers that know there’s cancer and etc. maybe some people just like their drug more than life or can’t imagine life without their drug. and you have to ask is the drug that strong or what happened in their life to make it like this? not that anybody should take pity on them. it’s like diabetics that still eat sugar, people with heart problems that still eat bacon… fat people that are unhappy they’re fat but eat because they’re unhappy. maybe we should teach out children healthy ways to fuck up their lives and take out their anger. I imagine people that work out at gyms and are obsessed with it, are running from something. I imagine every time they go up a group their ghosts get a little stronger. writing and music are good ways to exercise demons. but that takes a bit of talent and not everyone has that talent so I imagine if you’re trying to write something out, play something out and you can’t get it right; well then the demon gets stronger.

some people commit suicide. I commend them for at least having the balls. but suicide is tricky. because if you’re a parent or spouse or have any personal responsibilities to others then you can be conceived as an asshole. but lets think about this for a while- if someone is so mentally fucked up that they feel the need to commit suicide then maybe they’re not the best person to raise kids or be married to or run a business or be a good friend… maybe there’s a point where they can get help and be the person others need them to be or maybe for some there’s no turning back and they’re already dead. maybe some are just poison to themselves and other around them. should we try and judge whether suicide is ever just? try to understand the reason or reasons? is it worth it? did they leave a note? does it matter? is suicide always selfish? when does the victims rights, the kids, spouse, parents, coworkers and friends, over-write that of the person who ended their own life? as a society that needs to get better how do we act on this? I don’t know how to answer my very own questions. I’ll say this: if the person that offed themselves was a parent then no honor is deserved. if you where responsible enough to have sex and have kids, you’re responsible enough to get the help you need. if you’re married and you off yourself then there’s too many questions; questions only the most intimate people of the suicider have the right to ask. if you’re a drug addict or alcoholic or fat ass etc.; basically depressed about those issues then I have no sympathy for you. there’s always help for those issues that work if you’re strong enough. but maybe society is better off without, you know, like natural selection or survival of the fittest. if the person claimed to be haunted or possessed then they were crazy and good riddance. in that case if the family and friends didn’t help this person then they suck at their person responsibilities to that person. in the cases where a person has no one, no friends, family; no reason to live and they’re death goes un-effected then well- adios. they’d just better have enough money to take care of their own funeral and disposal arrangements. my tax dollars shouldn’t have to go to a piece like that.

of coarse if you kill yourself and make a mess someone has to clean up then you’re immediately an asshole. mess trumps all. 

ok, good talk! cheers, thanks a lot!