Greener.

if you could go back and change your life- how much would you edit? what if it meant you wouldn't be where you are now? would it be worth it then? what if you could only change one thing? would you risk the rest of your already lived life to change that one thing? was it that bad???? and are all of us changing the bad? see, i'd like to be who i am now but at the age of 16 when i started fucking up. no cigs, no booze, and no drugs. though these things and the creatures i met during those times have made me who i am now. but who i am now is so frustrated and behind. so broke and kinda niggery sad. but yes, i would sell it all if i could be a better person and in a better place in my life now. as shitty as that seems- i wouldn't have chapped my families ass raw, no criminal record, no huge debt for a 26 year old. at my age if i had stayed in college when i was 20- i'd be graduated by now. making pretties and raking in the cash that amount to more than i get now...
but the grass always seems greener on the other side. and that's life, an illusion.