anyways...

we've become so bored with our lives, i think. i've met people that are in love with life and they all have one thing in common. they're all Jesus freaks.
anyways, as i was saying, we're all bored with our lives. seems to me boredom and drug use come hand in hand. but it goes further than that. boredom also creates obsessions and art. creating art is like a drug. there's sex which is like a drug. and the earlier noted Jesus. all drugs. some legal. all a high. all an addiction. food is a drug...
i'm not pro drug and i don't really know where i'm going with this thought... i guess i'm trying to define a drug to myself. i guess i'm trying to make the point that no one is without vices. does it make me feel any better? do i have a drug problem? feel better no, and drug problem- depends on what definition you go by.
you know, i keep getting headaches and it hurts when i try to concentrate on one little thing. like when i'm whittling wood- i get into a trance and then notice my eyes hurt and i have a headache. i have a headache today from a vicodine hangover. see, i took two vicodines yesterday because we where going to the bar and everyone would be drinking and i'm a recovering alcoholic so i don't drink but i didn't want to be sober with a bunch of drunk/drinking people... didn't know you could get a vicodine hangover... my head is aching now as i'm looking at the screen and typing this.... maybe i have a brain tumor. that'd be redundant. anyways...